Graduation day
I felt un unexplainable desire of writing this blog in English...Probably because in time I came to express myself quite well in this language...Sometimes maybe even better than in my own native one...And it is, somehow, more expressive in a lot of ways than the other...It is simply closer to feelings...Not necessarily more flexible, simply more linked to them...I don't have a subject for this blog yet, hopefully I'll get some inspiration out of Michael Flatley's music...As for the rest...God knows (I know, Amorf, "don't insult my intelligence").
This is exactly how life goes in general...Often we don' have a certain direction, we let us live and go with the flow (as, again, my friend says), and time decides whether we'll take the left or the right, whether we'll go up or down, whether we'll choose right or wrong...Et caetera. It is simply a matter of trust in our Faith, and of hope, that Life will decide for us better than we would at that time. And I think that such an exercise of trust does good for our soul, from time to time. It teaches us how to accept the others around us, no matter the situation. And it also shows us if we are dignified to receive the supreme title of "human" being. For being "human" is, above all, the most important quality in the world. And we, people, often forget this, and hurt the one next to us...And realize we've hurt them only when it is far too late...And then it is only up to the one we've hurt to be human enough and forgive us... (In some ways, my dear M., we never grow up...no matter how desperate we are to prove to us and to others this thing, we remain forever the same children, that sometimes cannot solve their own problems and need others to help them...)
A few days ago I took this exam myself...And had to accept the humanity of my husband...Words cannot express the pain one feels in such a situation...And I like to believe that I passed my exam successfully, despite the pain and the tears and the anger and all those things said and done at that time...Because in the end it is only love that counts...Because love brought us together and made us cross borders that others didn't even dare look at...And in the end I know this won't be the last exam...But each one shows us better and better ways to improve ourselves as humans. The question is: do we really want to graduate?...
This is exactly how life goes in general...Often we don' have a certain direction, we let us live and go with the flow (as, again, my friend says), and time decides whether we'll take the left or the right, whether we'll go up or down, whether we'll choose right or wrong...Et caetera. It is simply a matter of trust in our Faith, and of hope, that Life will decide for us better than we would at that time. And I think that such an exercise of trust does good for our soul, from time to time. It teaches us how to accept the others around us, no matter the situation. And it also shows us if we are dignified to receive the supreme title of "human" being. For being "human" is, above all, the most important quality in the world. And we, people, often forget this, and hurt the one next to us...And realize we've hurt them only when it is far too late...And then it is only up to the one we've hurt to be human enough and forgive us... (In some ways, my dear M., we never grow up...no matter how desperate we are to prove to us and to others this thing, we remain forever the same children, that sometimes cannot solve their own problems and need others to help them...)
A few days ago I took this exam myself...And had to accept the humanity of my husband...Words cannot express the pain one feels in such a situation...And I like to believe that I passed my exam successfully, despite the pain and the tears and the anger and all those things said and done at that time...Because in the end it is only love that counts...Because love brought us together and made us cross borders that others didn't even dare look at...And in the end I know this won't be the last exam...But each one shows us better and better ways to improve ourselves as humans. The question is: do we really want to graduate?...
posted by Sheherazade at 12:29 AM
3 Comments:
Graduation comes in that last moment of your life. That is when your exams end ... That is the moment that will mark others, and make them remember you, based on the performance you've had during this crash course in humanity, called life. Some learn quite well, others don't ... this is what we're remembered at the end.
Personally, i don't want to graduate. Not because of fearing the end itself, but because Man, is essentially created to experiment life to the fullest. We're made to learn, to suffer, to draw conclusions, to bring joy to ourselves and the ones beside us. I was thinking while on my trip to cluj, what it would be like to be immortal. It shouldn't be all that boring. However, the question is, what would you do if you were the only immortal one ? If you would have to go from one person to another, if you, at some point, would lose track of all those that stood in your arms, or in whom's arms you've been. Graduation is a necessity after all. Only because, apart from learning and experimenting, Man was created for another reason as well ... to love. And love is not something that can be replenished as we go on. So if when i "graduate", i would like to know that throughout my life, i've offered the best i've had to offer, to that one person, next to me.
So ... graduation ... we can accept it only when we've fullfilled our purpose. To ourselves, and to the rest.
I was only reffering to what "mature" means...not to "THE" graduation. Because for that one in my oppinion we are NEVER ready. Even if we were immortal, we would never be ready for the true meaning of that one. And in my oppinion, we are truely mature when we have the courage to admit that we chose the person next to us because she/he was the only one deem fit to be the witness of our lives on this planet...because she/he could truely testify about our success in becoming "human".
graduation is the final act, but the path to graduation is the interesting and sparkling fun of our lives. The funny thing is that nobody asked us if we want to graduate..
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